Today I got disgusted, I turned to go all night without sleep just.
obviously did not go to class.
In the morning I drank tea and tried reuir food until I was inebitable.
On the table:
-rice with peas, onions and ham.
-curry chicken wings.
-Pan.
-Custard.
I sat at the table and my mother began to serve rice in a bowl. I have no hunger
mom .- growled the spoon away from my plate.
Honestly I never realized how disgusting it is to see people eat ... reppulsión authentic look gives me food, listen to your breathing or chewing mouths ... even the smell makes me nauseous ... was revolting to see all the fat together>. < I spent half an hour separating the peas from my plate of rice.
- Why do not you eat? - Growled my father using another spoonful of rice. "Because it subnormal.
spat my brother attacking the wings.
Finally, my mother made me drink from the refrigerator to accompany my medication.
I was engrossed looking at the shelves of the refrigerator, before and neurotically ordered by me, as if changing the TV channel.
my yogurts were not low in calories.
Look at the drawers of the fruit and took the tiny apple had . I began to peel and chop, killing time until I was forced to eat it ... or 100gr epsarÃa not but I ate it with disgust, not wanting to even nausea ... if not because I'm sick of the throat had vomited that tiny apple ...
Yesterday I got into a chat room and met several interesting people but also met the typical "good Samaritan" which purports to make your good deed for the day "saving" our lives ... I understand that people in part because I've been in the position Antian, but these people do not understand ... much they read, they see or hear, you never know what this is to live it. Unlike us if these people have lived both sides of the coin and we can say from understanding. Obviously there unconscious brat do this without knowing the consequences and to draw attention, but I do not classify us all is the solution ... Many are aware of all this, the consequences, that this is not a game ... that is a way of life and unfortunately some fuckin 'disease. Do you think that people that what I will say I have not heard already or that I myself think? no, it's much easier to think that we are all silly oxygen whose only ambition in life is to be the spunky barbie wrapped shift. And that's not true. Most of us have dreams hopes and fears. All we think about our future, in love, buy a house and some even want to have children (I only happens at times) And of course we are aware that this is like a cancer that kills not only ourselves, but our family and friends ... but it is so easy to get out of here ... And if you think that if it is, it is obvious you do not know the implications of this disease. What upsets you, it corrupts you and giving you ... although it is ironic because the more you engage and close these death ... you feel better>. <>
currently do not know anything ... not even know if I think about all this.
just wish to leave me alone, let me stop eating and get to my goal, and when it comes I know I'll be happy ... or so I repeat day after day ... because the truth is that when you reach that goal I'll get another and then another and then another ...
I hope that day never come, and that if he has enough strength (and now I'm missing) to stop this.
But today ...
NOT WANT! THIS IS MY LIFE! WHAT ME AND THE FULL FOLLOW THAT MAKES ME DAY BY DAY!
AND FUCK THAT good Samaritans!
no-calorie sweet kisses my princess!
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